I've been a bad girl... or maybe I haven't... I really only use this blog when I have something that I need to get off my chest and need for it to go away. I haven't been here in probably over a month which means that I haven't had any stress that I needed to blog off...
Okay, that's a flat out lie. I have had stress. A fair bit of it. Most of it caused by one person. She will remain nameless for the sake of this blog.
It's all good. though, I fixed my facebook so that she can't see anything about me, not even when I'm online and then I created her about twelve times in the Sims and killed her in some pretty nice ways. Let's see, I trapped her in a pool and took away the ladder. She drowned to death. Then I put her in a 2x2 room with now windows or doors and no toilet. She got hungry, pissed herself and then died. I hit her with a falling satellite, I hit her with lightning, I set her on fire and I gave her pneumonia and wouldn't let her rest. For that death I actually plead with death for her return which made us like best friends and then I broke the computer, took away her mechanical skills and made her fix it. She electrocuted herself. I even gave her an honorable death by flies. I think the most awesome was I had her go on vacation, meet a random guy ( I couldn't make her actual fiancee... I like him and for what I had planned...eh...) She fell madly deeply in love and married him and then I killed her with fright. He left her tombstone in the middle of a vacant lot. She haunted no one.
You know... seeing all that in writing, I realize I might have a few anger problems. Just a few. Very small ones.
But the most important thing is that I'm good to work with her again. Something about killing off a fiction representation of someone that you are extremely pissed off at that really makes you less angry at them.
So in other news, I am now a shift leader at work. Tonight I had my first mock run of closing the store. I am 80% sure that I won't burn the store down tomorrow on my first actual closing.
Okay 79.9999%....
I'll be fine, I got it. I have a while bunch of people that believe in me and are willing to help if I need it. I'm all good.
So really nothing else is new.
I started smoking again. I admit that hoping that it will make me stop but since stress has decided to camp out so have the cigs. They aren't budging and I'm not pushing.
Also, I really need to purge myself of my attraction to this really hot guy that I have fallen into the Friendzone with. And not even the really awesome friendzone. I could totally handle being in the friends with benefits zone. But how do I say that to him? God help me I tried to say it. He came over before the movie the other day and promptly laid out on my bed and dammit it was all I could do not to just jump on the bed next to him. I was a good freaking girl. Dammit Dette. Dammit dammit dammit. Now I know why guys hate the friendzone. Ladies, if you have guys in the friendzone, give them a hand up. Give them a handjob. No one deserve to be in the friendzone. The friendzone sucks. Period.Eliminate the freaking friendzone and make it the... I don't know... Still friends but you can solve a little problem for me from time to time zone...
I will make myself not like him. I will make myself not like him. I will not troll Tinder this Summer... Or maybe I will troll Tinder this summer. Maybe I will meet a bit of fun... Summer can't be all about work can it?
I'm going to watch an episode of the new Sailor Moon and then go on to bed. I need to be well rested for tomorrow night.
I will not make the other employees riot.
I will not burn the store down.
I will make it out of there with my sanity.
I will stop saying these stupid as hell affirmations to myself...
Pray for me y'all... Just pray...
