Kissing...

So I'm sitting here watching Love and Hip Hop: Atlanta and these two are sitting here kissing... I think... I mean I think they are kidding but I ain't never done it like that before.

My experience with kissing is closed mouth and basically a peck.  At times it might have been longer but yeah... that's it.

I'm sitting here thinking that I need to learn how to do this.  I need to learn to kiss like this... I want to learn to kiss like that.

Aside from the general fact that it alternately looks like either trying to resuscitating each other or swallow each other depending on which way your head is turned, it still looks like fun...

Is this a black thing? This kissing like you're trying to swallow your partner or is this a general kissing rule?  I don't think I've ever seen white people kiss like this... I think I need to try this with a man from every race and nationality.

Yes.  I need to explore this live sucking kissing thing...

Importance

You must always remember this...

While your problems seem like they are are more important than everything else, in everyone else's world your problems mean very little.

My therapist said this to me today.  I find that it's very true.  In my world my walls are coming tumbling down and the ground is shaking and all I need is someone to wrap their arms around me and hugs and and hold me until it okay to come out of hiding but to the outside world the fact that I'm not up on a water tower laughing maniacally and shooting innocent people (perhaps in light of the recent tragedy that's kinda insensitive but...) I'm perfectly fine.

It's all in how you look at life. 

I have to wrap my mind around it fully because like said my problems are huge in my world.  And in my world I still need that hug.

The happy side of today though is that I have been taken off my phych meds!  Yea!!!  I have a prescription for one but it's at my discretion to pick it up and take it.  It's an awesome feeling!

Nothing else to report today really.  I have a headache so I'm going to take my meds and hit the hay.

Night!