Yeah... I got nothing... At all.
I need to blog but I don't really have a subject. I can tell you about what I've been eating.
French fries. I have become even more addicted to french fries. McDonald's french fries. Recently, I discovered that I like them dipped in hot fudge.
NO, I'm not pregnant.
Last time I checked members of the opposite sex want to have... you know actual sex for that to happen and I can assure you not one damn member of the opposite sex wants me in that way.
Let's see what we can cover.
Love life:
As mentioned above. No one wants me in that way. This is not for lack of me trying. A good friend of mine said that I shouldn't look to be with anyone until I am happy with myself.
I am happy with myself. I actually for the first time in probably forever have no issues with myself. I am okay with my weight, I am okay with the fact that I have complete and total bursts of utter inappropriateness. I am okay with the fact that sometimes I can be shy and sometimes I can be the most gregarious person you will ever meet. I am okay sitting at home with myself and doing nothing.
I am happy with myself. The only thing that I am not happy with about myself is that I can find anyone that happy with me the way I am happy with me. And I'm not looking for love, I'm looking for... just someone. I'm wierd and crazy, and sometimes moody and all I want is someone that's okay with that and maybe a little of the same.
I blogged a few days ago about how I was over someone and that I didn't care anymore. That was a lie. I mean every day that goes by something happens that makes me want to punch him. Hard. But I'm not going to lie. If he showed me the slightest bit of interest I would probably melt like a snowman in Tahiti. That actually pisses me off but there's a reason behind that.
Work life:
That area of my life is a little bit more interesting. Things are being shaken up there and I am neither happy or amused. In fact people that I love dearly are talking about going away. I don't like that. At all. I want them to stay and I want other people to go. I can't make people stay nor can I help make people go but still.... I love them. We're like a big family. And just to prove we are close I can tell you with absolute honesty that we have been bouncing the same cold in varying degrees around for maybe two months. Seriously. LIke a huge waltons style family. I love my work family. I would do a lot for them and wouldn't trade any of them for anything.
Family:
My mom is still being my mom. Which is to say that there are moments when she forgets that I'm 35 not 16 and she basically decides my life for me. I am dealing better with these moments. I tend to listen, take to heart her advice and then completely ignore it in favor of doing what I want to do and then look back in retrospect and realize that she may or may not have had a point and maybe I should have done something her way. But then that's every relationship with mothers and daughters.
My daughters have, thanks to my aunt and my mother, acquired tablets and cell phones. This means that I am no longer needed for entertainment. At all. It is now so freaking quiet in my house that I'm pretty sure if I screamed, no one would hear it. On the upside though, my girls actually contact me now. Now that they have texting and whatnot, I get random I love you texts and whatcha doin? texts. It's great.
Health:
Not so awesome here. Like I said above, I finally caught the cold/flu we've been passing around work and OMG! I'm not sure but I was fairly certain for a couple of days there that I actually was going to die. And if it would have stopped the nose blowing, the coughing, and the sore throat, I would have given myself gladly over to death himself. I still have the breathing problems because hey! I have asthma that really sucks and my voice still sounds like that of a great groan man but with those I can so deal. Well not with the no breathing. I have good nights and bad nights with that.
So have I missed any facet of my life? I'm pretty sure I covered it all. If I missed anything, let me know. Until then, stay frosty!!
