My my my, July got here fast. I guess I should actually start packing, huh? In a way, now that July is here, I am sad. i didn't get to spend enough time with my friends, I didn't go to very many parties, I didn't go on one single solitary date...Wait... why am I whining? I'm going to a brand new state where people may want to invite me to parties because they don't know yet that I'm a wallflower! I may get asked out by someone that's cute. (I have this running gag with my friend John that I am going to get down there and get engaged to some guy named Bubba and we'll run a shrimping business)
I am seriously going to miss New Jersey. I'm not fool enough to believe everyone when they say "now I have a reason to come down to North Carolina" and "I promise I will come visit." I know that I will probably never get to see a lot of the people I call friends here but there are only a few that I am truly going to miss. And I don't have to say that here for them to know I am going to miss them. They are for all intensive purposes the sisters my mom didn't have but God gave anyway. He even arranged for me to meet one of them in quite possibly the most unorthodox way two people could ever meet!
Did i ever tell you how my BFF&E met? No? It's a funny story. I will have to tell it sometime. Not now though.
Yes, I am going to miss them... Truth be told I'm pretty sure they are the only people who can put up with my major mood swings. My mom can't even keep up. And I've got all angles covered. I have the galpal that will walk me through the deeper meaning of why I feel that way so that in the end I feel better. I have the galpal that will just walk with me, both literally and figuratively, until I stop saying everything is fine and start talking. Then I have the galpal that demands that I talk. I mean demands, and then gives me the biggest hugs or she'll just stare at me like "WTF? this is what you're stressing about?!?! That's nothing, let's fix that right now" I'm not going to find replicas of them in Charlotte and truthfuly, I don't want replicas. I don't want to replace them, I want them. If i could pack them and their families up and move them to NC with me I so would.
So lately I ave found myself changing my appearance. I've gotten colored contacts, I've lost weight, I'm pretty much tossing out my wardrobe and am going to dress my age and not twenty years older... I am serious, I am going on a manhunt. I had a crush one one main guy here. I have no clue why I fell so hard for him and part of me is still hoping for just one kiss before I go. I'm not really into him anymore but hell a kiss from him would be one hell of a send off, but stupid stupid me, I can't tell him that I llike him! Rumor from a friends dad said that he said if i wanted him to just go for him but I have never been that bold and the few times I was bold, I think he thought I was kidding...
Fark it. I'm going to take my Michael Buble and go to bed...
Happy fourth of July
Single and blogging is probably going to miss the fireworks... Definately going to miss them...
