Almost made it...

...through the day without thinking of that certain someone.  I was having a really good day (You know aside from the part of it where I was the human air freshener trapped on the hot as hell bus.)  but then, then I went on my facebook new feed and say that my "friends" got together last night.  I don't blame them for not thinking about me.  I'm not on their radar unless my bff is around and really to tell you the truth not even then. but that's besides the point.

I can't wait to move to North Carolina this summer.  I will get to be around Patty, and closer to Lisa, and Carrie might even come out to visit me.  Why do I mention them by name when thus far I haven't mention anyone's names?  I mention them by name because these are the people who care about me so much that when they don't hear from me for more than an hour after I get off work (Carrie) they text me (Carrie) relentlessly (Carrie).  When they don't hear from me for more than a day (Lisa) they call me to make sure that I'm still alive (Lisa) and they don't feel the need (Lisa) to say "Hello?  How have you been?" (Lisa), they start the conversation with "Well hot damn!, She lives!"(Lisa)  They don't care that fun happy Dette come out when the drinks are flowing (patty) they only care that she occasionally comes out (Patty).  They call me a dork (Patty) and already know that I'm not going to be hurt by it because I know it's code for "Dude, You are awesome"

But I am not complaining about my group of "friends" here.  I love my group of "friends" here.  They really are nice and I do believe that some of them do actually care for me.  I genuinely care from some of them.

So what is the problem?  I already told you.  I am jealous of them.  They have lives.  They have no kids, they can go hang out because the day ends in a y.  I hate the term fuck my life but, fuck my life! 

It's whatever... I don't care...